its 541am in the morninqq now.
yet i cant qet myself to sleeeep.
turninqq and tossinqq on my beddyy for couple of hours. SO, what can i do? apart from starinqq into daze. automatically all the thoughts will start runninqq once again.

i really hate this.
its just like a daily routine to me. i cant stop my mind from thinkinqq; NEVER.

AND; school starts todayy.
i suppose im not attendinqq.
dont ask me why; cos i just dont feel like. :x
dear friends, please dont call me later on uh.



the picture above just depicts how i feels now.
CONFUSED;INDECISIVE
i felt so baddyy.
MIXED FEELINGS; yet HURT. really hurts.
no one fully understands me.


im feelinqq so sucky this few days. all these crapp had been pesterinqq me for months;weeks;days;hours;minutes;seconds.
i need a break; but i cant.
im feelinqq tired; complete exhausted.


NOW; maybe its all due to my childish fears.
my selfishness.
BUT; i think i need you in my life.
but how can i make you the one and only?
can you do this too?
can you put down the past and move on?
there are loads of but's and and's.
`

all these factors are unknown.
i know its not easy to achieve.
but its workable; feasible.
its just a WANT OR NOT from us.
agree?

:c night.

have you quys ever strike 1st prize in 4D ?
am i counted lucky or..
its just a dream.
i wonder what will b cominqq up next.

lady luck wasnt with me recently.
i lost my fav cardigon; my cap
then hurt my toe.
lost my n95.
next, my lappy crash.
now i qonna find a professional to backup my files.
and to refomat my lappy.
=.=
im so confused whether i should wear a smile on my face or to pout. :x


my 2 weeks of holiday started.
today is the third day.
hmm, im qettinqq kinda tired these few days.
sigh.
ive qot a feelinqq that im qonna b ill soooon.


this two days ive been thinkinqq and reflectinqq alone.
i used to thinkk that im stronqq.
i thought i sorted out my feelinqq lonqq before,
im so very sure that i will never ever chanqe.
but..
thinqqs just wont qo how we wished for.
damn, im qettinqq bonker with these shit stuck in my mind.