its 541am in the morninqq now.
yet i cant qet myself to sleeeep.
turninqq and tossinqq on my beddyy for couple of hours. SO, what can i do? apart from starinqq into daze. automatically all the thoughts will start runninqq once again.

i really hate this.
its just like a daily routine to me. i cant stop my mind from thinkinqq; NEVER.

AND; school starts todayy.
i suppose im not attendinqq.
dont ask me why; cos i just dont feel like. :x
dear friends, please dont call me later on uh.



the picture above just depicts how i feels now.
CONFUSED;INDECISIVE
i felt so baddyy.
MIXED FEELINGS; yet HURT. really hurts.
no one fully understands me.


im feelinqq so sucky this few days. all these crapp had been pesterinqq me for months;weeks;days;hours;minutes;seconds.
i need a break; but i cant.
im feelinqq tired; complete exhausted.


NOW; maybe its all due to my childish fears.
my selfishness.
BUT; i think i need you in my life.
but how can i make you the one and only?
can you do this too?
can you put down the past and move on?
there are loads of but's and and's.
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all these factors are unknown.
i know its not easy to achieve.
but its workable; feasible.
its just a WANT OR NOT from us.
agree?

:c night.